I'm through with meditation.

I'm done meditating.  I mean it this time.  I'm sick of it.  I've been meditating regularly for over 7 years now and I haven't seen any "changes" in my life.  I haven't become a better person.  I haven't become more easy-going or less angry.  I don't see the point of wasting any more time on this.  I've tried dozens of methods and approaches.  Something will work and I think, "Alright!  I've finally got it!  I've got something that works!" And then after a day or two I'm right back where I was.  I don't see the point in continuing to meditate if there's not some benefit to it.  I feel awful about 80% of my waking life.  Meditation was supposed to help with that.  You see all these celebrities hailing meditation and claiming what a wonderful difference it has made in their lives, but I don't see shit.

The above drawing is from my old Toadsgoboad blog.  It was done approximately 10 years ago to the day.  Something's wrong with me.  I can't find focus.  My drawings from 10 years ago seem so much better, even though my technique has evolved and improved.